Matrix - Series, The Fan Fiction ❯ Sin and Death ( Chapter 1 )

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`Here the hedonistic principle is pushed to its utmost,
the whole world has turned into a Riviera Hotel. But though Brave
New World was a brilliant caricature of the present, it probably
casts no light on the future. No society of that kind would last
more than a couple of generations, because a ruling class that
thought principally in terms of a « good time » would soon lose its
vitality. A ruling class has got to have a strict morality, a
quasi-religious belief in itself, a




To my teacher and friend, Jacob Hooman Pejvack.

To the great writer and activist Nasreen Pejvack, author of the
amazing Amity.

To my friends Wagner Pinheiro, Sungwoo Song, Misuzu Sahara,
Andrés Marques and Mohamed Abusneinah.

To Simon Page, Rachel Sayao and Bruno Nice; thank you guys!

1 – Sin and Death


A raging sea was dueling with the wrathful dark sky. Black waves
lashed against a craggy cliff, while a grey blizzard struck the
stone wall above it. A gloomy silhouette of a stronghold towered
against the cloudy lightning-filled sky; an impressive fortress of
stone. Indifferent to the fierceness of the wind or the roars of
the sea and thunder, this massive construction had remained forever
harboured on the headland of Cape Bougainville, witnessing the
furious spectacle surrounding it.

Many years ago, the old building could have been a presidium or
even a military post. Centuries ago. However, now it was the year
634 After Ford. The pinnacle of the Age of Stability.
In this New World, war or crimes were no more. The fortress had
needed to find a new function to be spared from dismantlement – as
had been the fate of almost every other building of its time. And
so it became no more than an enormous gravestone; a tomb not for
men, but for the knowledge of yore. The broad reinforced concrete
installations of the currently named “Falklands Refuge
State Library
Ranganathan” sheltered a wide
collection of ancient books, most of them undisturbed for hundreds
of years. Tomes of philosophy, history, literature, sciences and
politics lined infinite shelves, in sepulchral cold galleries,
squeezed between the stony walls. Plato, Moses, Hobbes, Einstein,
Augustin, all were resting under layers of dust and oblivion. The
final destination for an exiled wisdom.

Occasionally the dimly lit corridors were haunted by restless
souls, uneasy explorers that dared venture through the narrow
aisles to rummage among the yellowish pages; and in the midst of
this maze of shelves was a rustic wooden door to a little chamber,
in which one of those phantoms had chosen to dwell.

Lightning filled the chamber from a small square window with pale
radiance. It seemed to be a cloister cell; a kerosene-surrogate
lamp projected trembling ghostly shadows upon the walls of rock.
Within these walls, the phantom was at his desk, absorbed by his
pen with the devotion of a copyist monk.

The phantom was a powerfully built man, deep-chested,
broad-shouldered, with dark curly hair and a thick beard,
surrounded by dusty books, crumpled papers and a pile of writing
sketches. A man who was becoming every day more hardened by the
strange task he imposed upon himself, as if he was gradually
becoming part of the stone around him.

It had not been always this way. This phantom had once lived a real
life in a perfect world. He surpassed both physically and mentally
the eugenic elite to which he belonged – the Alpha citizens of
London, capital city of wealthy West Europe. In the old days he had
been a famous writer and a very popular lecturer at London’s
College of Emotional Engineering, consistently surrounded by
enthusiastic students and fiery lovers – with tenuous boundaries
between the classrooms and the alcoves. However, that was not his
homeland anymore. He was no longer a citizen of the World State.
Now, his companions were the cold stones, the still air and the
words of masters that had left centuries ago. Having no one else to
teach nor an audience to lecture and deprived of the arms of a
beauty, he was immersed in his new occupation, absorbed in his
personal fight with words, scribbling and erasing in his quest for
the clearest phraseology, the finest style. Professor Helmholtz
Watson had become a craftsman of his thoughts, a man in search of
himself through his art.

A knock on his door. “Helmholtz!” his name
echoed through the halls behind it.

Marx”, he snarled, without hiding his
annoyance. Yes, within these walls there was also his friend
Bernard Marx, another wandering spectre. Like him, Marx had
been too much of an atypical person in a world of typical persons
and had paid the price for such unwise conduct. Bernard – also an
Alpha Plus citizen – was a brilliant man, smart enough to be
the only person Helmholtz could really hold interesting talks with
when they lived in London (without risking being bothered by the
local authorities the following day). Bernard Marx and Helmholtz
Watson shared their nonconformity with what they called `inane,
almost imposed happiness
‘; as well as their differences with
the rest of that `childishly joyful’ society. However, they
were very different even between themselves. Marx’s privileged
brain was offset by a physical constitution quite below the
patterns of his caste. Being noticeably shorter and thinner than
his peers, he had the distinctive features of an Alpha, however in
a body similar to that of a Gamma. Worst of all, Bernard
perceived himself as a defective part of that standardized society
– even more than the people around him already did – and although
he was an outstanding psychologist, he had never managed to deal
with such insecurity. His odd behavior and intemperate reactions
only served to hasten his alienation from society, culminating in
his exile, along with Helmholtz.

“I’m busy now, Bernard.”

The door wasn’t locked, however Bernard (knowing his friend’s
mood), did not dare to open it. “Come and see what is
happening in London right now!”

“I don’t care about London anymore, Bernard”, Helmholtz
shouted at his door. “Please leave.

Come on!” the door insisted. “You
must see the news!”

« Oh, Ford! » Helmholtz cursed, and instantly raised his hand
to his lips, in a self-censoring reflex. For some reason,
everything that was related to the name he had just bellowed had a
highly obscene connotation in this insular island State to which
they had been banished. It was as offensive to the locals as were
dirty words such as « mother » and « family » in Western Europe and
neighboring areas. Scurrilous to the point of undermining human
dignity; Marx and he had both been told by the authorities to watch
their language. Helmholtz was embarrassed by his sudden rashness;
however he hated being interrupted while writing
(thoughtcrafting, he used to say) and Marx knew that!

Anyway, his pen seemed to be rather useless that day. Maybe he’d
better give little Bernard some attention after all. Helmholtz
looked up at the window. A pale light flashed on his dispirited
face; even the storm outside was refusing to bring its usual
inspiration. He finally dropped his beaten pen on a page filled
with mere scratches and no actual useful writing, capitulating.
“Fine, what’s so important to see on

“It’s John!” Bernard said. “Meet me in the
Audiovisual Room!”

Helmholtz heard his steps moving away. John, what? He got up
on his feet. John the Savage? He rushed through his door and
hurried to the hall.

In a village settled upon a mesa in the New
Mexico desert area, an ancient
sunburnt man
wearing rustic leather trousers was working
the clay
, shaping a pot. Suddenly the old man paused
his activity and looked at the clouds in the
afternoon sky. A lone tear rolled down
his dry face. “I knew you shouldn’t have
left, boy,” Mitsima
mourned in his zuñi-like
dialect. I hope you’ll
finally find your peace”.

Helmholtz arrived in the Audiovisual Room; A small crowd gathered
at the large flat screen that flooded their senses with color,
noise and light; Why were all these people there? Were they also
interested in John? And there was Bernard among them. “I
know that area
,” Watson spoke to him, pointing at the
images of rolling landscapes – a hill, ruins of a lighthouse.
“Me too,” Bernard turned to him. “It is on the
southwest flight route from London.”

“Is that where he is?? How did John get

Bernard Marx nodded, looking at the television.
Look!” The screen showed a strong long-haired
young man, half naked, his back marked with scratches and minor
bleeding, striking the ground with a hoe. An odd-looking man, but
still well known to them. “That is our friend, no doubt. Who
hurt him like that?”

At that moment there was a cut-scene. This time the young man was
nervously gesturing, threateningly, feathers and sticks scattered
all around. “Why is he so angry?” someone
whispered, while another man appeared on-screen, this one wearing
mulberry-coloured garments and a strange metallic hat, carefully
approaching the furious Savage holding something in his hands.
“Who is that Beta? What does he want with him?”

“The Beta is a reporter; probably from Hourly Radio, judging
by that transmitter on his head;” inferred Helmholtz Watson.
“That fool wants to interview John,”

“Which isn’t a clever idea, is it?”

Háni! Sons éso
Along with that likely scurrility, the
Savage delivered his antagonist’s coccyx a most prodigious kick.
Crowds gathered around the large public TVs at many locations in
London laughed out loud at the scene’s comicality.

“Yes, the boy is still good for a fight!” Helmholtz

“Good enough for the nosy Beta,” Bernard observed,
watching the Savage chasing away the complaining intruder.
“What’s next?”

What was next surely would be formidable. The scene shifted to John
bowing on his knees, his back exposed; the room was filled with
sighs and shrieks of anticipation. « He’ll start that again! »
someone laughed.

“What are they talking…?” before Helmholtz
finished the question a resounding ‘Crack!’ answered him,
followed by ‘hoorays’ from people around. Scarlet strings came down
from the left side of the young Indian’s back.

“Oh, this explains the wounds,” Bernard observed
amazed. A handful of chords came again, this time from the right
side. Crack! “He is self-flagellating!” The room
burst in laughs. It was impossible to keep a straight face before
the absurdity of that scene. ‘Crack!’ New red scratches on
the left side. John’s features contorted. A renewed wave of
laughter. ‘Crack!’ A boy laughed with the hysterical
stridency that his pre-pubescent voice still allowed him.
`Crack’! The Savage screamed, blood ran, irresistibly

What madness is this?” Helmholtz cried out

“It’s a ritual of purification from his tribe,” Bernard
explained. “Something must have left John upset to the point
he’s trying to purge it by self-punishing. Possibly he is still
disgusted by the ‘sinfulness’ of civilization.”

“Maybe you’re correct, my friend, but that’s not what I’m
talking about,” Helmholtz protested. “Look
around!” As the television displayed the Savage falling on
his face, bloody and exhausted, a young woman gasped, breathless,
tearing at the laughter. “They mock at the situation. I
overheard someone here calling John ‘The Surrey
. They talk about him like he was a clown! »

« Calm down, Helmholtz, » Bernard could see his friend about to slap
the people around. « They do not know him, they do not understand
what’s going on. »

I will not admit such…

“Oh, so you are also fans of the Surrey Savage!”
Bernard and Helmholtz turned to a tall, old, elegantly dressed man
with a bushy mustache approaching. “That kid has become a
sensation everywhere, from London to here. You know this show is a
rerun, right boys?” he asked, as the scene changed to the
young Indian reading an old book; a thriller break.

“Mister Nietzsche! What do you mean by `rerun’?” asked

“Just like the Eternal Return.”

“Like what?”

“I mean they are displaying it over and over to keep the

“So,” Helmholtz went between, “what is being
shown here has already happened long ago?”

“Not everything. These scenes you just saw took place last
week. However, something even crazier happened last night,”
Thomas Nietzsche responded, “that is why all these people
have left their books and came here.”

Someone amongst those people who had left their books hissed,
demanding silence. “What are you talking about?”
Helmholtz whispered.

“Look, the headline event is coming!” Nietzsche nodded
his mustache toward the television. The light took the form of a
chaotic moving mosaic, made up of several naked human bodies,
snaking, striking, spreading throughout the hills.

“Oh, Ford!”

* * *

Sirens echoed everywhere. The streets were rowdy. People crowded at
the large screens of public televisions in the squares and on the
facades of the buildings. Dozens of helicopters hummed from one
part of the city to another, nervously maneuvering to avoid mid-air
collision whilst jostling for space between the skyscrapers in the
cloudy sky of London. It was going to be a hectic day for the
capital city of the West European Control.

The city’s Central Hospital was in the midst of a great commotion
that morning. Aircraft hovered over the top of the building,
landing one after the other, disembarking injured people – mostly
women, who were quickly supported by Gamma nurses; then immediately
taking off, giving way to the next. Some unaware staff asked:
`What is happening here, was it a landslide
r some other calamity?‘ `No, natural
sters were never so

A young, very pretty but distressed brunette Beta in a
mulberry-coloured dress was hurrying through the corridors, crowded
with nurses guiding their patients. Dodging stretchers, wheelchairs
carrying people covered in bandages and Gammas in their long green
aprons, the Beta rushed to the service desk. « I’m looking for a
called Crowne! » she blurted breathlessly.
« In which room she was admitted to? »

« Calm down, lady,” said the attendant who was certainly not
having one of her best days. “First of all, what’s your
name? »

“Fanny Crowne,” answered the Beta girl.

The bedroom door opened, and Fanny and the nurse quietly tiptoed
in. Heavy breathing was heard. The lights came on smoothly,
revealing a reclining bed in the center of the room. Resting upon
it was a woman, covered by a blanket from chest to feet, wearing a
neck brace. Her arms and her red, swollen face were partly hidden
by thick bandages. A plastic mask on her nose and mouth was
connected by a hose to a metal cylinder. An intermittent beep from
the electrocardiogram indicated a slow but stable heartbeat. « Oh
Ford, oh my Ford! » Fanny moaned. “She is so disfigured! I can
barely recognize her!”

“She will recover in a matter of days,” the nurse
calmed her. “Fortunately she has no fractures, deep wounds or
harm to internal organs; but she suffered many bruises and injuries
that needed to be disinfected, and also had to receive some
blood-surrogate. She was sedated by a soma-based gas earlier, but
she is about to wake up. You can stay here to monitor the patient,
but please do not let her become distressed.”

The lights lowered as the nurse left Fanny alone with the girl on
the bed.

“Have you heard? You’ll be fine, dear”, she whispered
in the twilight.

The fact that they both shared the same surname was nothing more
than a common coincidence. They were most likely products from
different anonymous ovaries, and surely from unknown distinct sperm
sources, and the merest suggestion of consanguinity between them
would be regarded as outrageous; but they shared a strong bond of
affection, true sisters in a world with no more siblings.
“You’ll be fine in time.” Anguish filled Fanny’s heart
as she kindly untangled some strands of blond hair from the girl’s
face. Anguish, but also an inevitable revulsion – even a
tenderhearted person like Fanny Crowne could not help feeling
shocked at seeing those wounds. “Ford…” As
any other citizen of the World State, Fanny had been conditioned
since she was an embryo in a bottle to be extremely squeamish at
even the idea of illness or injury, considering it gruesome and
disgusting; as horrifying as old age, physical deformities or dirt.
She covered her face with her hands, her eyes moistened. « What
kind of brute would be able to put such a sweet person in

such a deplorable state? »

Suddenly she heard a groan – the patient was moving on her bed.
Fanny Crowne approached and gently pulled down the sedative mask.
The girl coughed twice and slowly opened her swollen red eyes,
revealing big bluish irises. She blinked, the irises turned to

Oh… Hullo darling.”
she whispered weakly, in an attempt to smile. Fanny held her

“Welcome back, Lenina Crowne,” she answered

* * *

The door opened silently; light flooding in from behind a
silhouette. “Oh, there you are!” whispered a male
voice. He entered briskly and closed the door behind him.

“Henry! You took too long…” said Fanny.

“Ford Flivver,” the man stepped into the bluish light
of the ionized argon lamps. He had a youthful and handsome
appearance, his blond hair impeccably combed, his body the frame of
an Alpha. “It’s a mess out there! I had to park the
helicopter several blocks from here.” His face creased up for
a split second as he looked at the convalescent girl. “Oh! Is
she awake?”

“She woke up a few minutes ago,” replied Fanny, and
patted the girl’s arm. “Look, dear, Henry is here.”

Lenina Crowne opened her eyes again and smiled faintly at him,
muttering something. Fanny Crowne, Henry Foster, she was glad to
have them there. They were more than her colleagues at the Central
London Hatchery. They were her dearest friends.

“How do you feel, honey?”

« Believe me, better than I look, » Lenina grunted. « Just an ache
here and there; Ford, they completely bandaged me,” she said,
showing the wrappings on her arms. “They think I’m a
weakling?” She looked at the television set. “Please
turn it on. I want to see what’s going on in the news. »

« Honey, you need to rest, » said Fanny. « You shouldn’t upset
yourself. »

Oh, come on!” she moaned with annoyance.
“I have to know what happened to John.”

Fanny frowned and looked at Henry. Yes, he confirmed with a gaze,
she was referring to the one who had put her in this wounded state.
The infamous Savage.

* * *

Thousands of screens simultaneously showed an aerial view, hundreds
of naked forms could be seen spread out on a greenish hill,
intertwined in frantic movement, shrouded in a dense mist of Soma,
lusty and brawling.

“Ford’s Tin Goose!” Fanny widened her eyes and
put her hands over her mouth, terrified. “Were both of you

Watson passed his hand across his forehead. “What
are those crazy people

« Look at how that girl is being lashed!”
said some girl at Trafalgar Square’s public Panel TV. “And
helps her. »

“It is like a fabulous Fordian Service combined with the
melee that you and John caused with the Deltas,”
Bernard scoffed.

Fan-tas-tic!”, Indira was enthusiastic, much to
the amazement of her colleagues at M.L.O’Hern.

Sodom and Gomorrah,” someone whispered at the
Controller’s office in Buckingham.

“Oh, those Brits,” Renata sniggered between
gulps of beer at a pub in Stanley. “Jim, turn up the

“Seeing the whole picture, it is even scarier”, said

Very funny, Bernard,” Helmholtz mumbled.
“Where is John? Can you see him amidst that mess?”

Bunch of morons!” Adam Wilde
grunted at HR’s bureau. « Whatever! I want one of you kids right
there now! »

“I don’t understand,” Fanny blurted, “if both
of you
were also in the midst of this debauchery, how
come only Lenina got hurt?” (whereas Henry had somehow kept
that unnaturally impeccable hairdo?)

“Sacred Jalopy”, George Locke sighed and turned
to his peers at the gathering table. “I don’t have a good
feeling about this.”

“I never saw anything like that back in my days in
Britain,” observed Thomas Nietzsche. “People had always
been pretty crazy, but not that insane.”

“These are still images from yesterday; it is enough.”
Henry stepped up to turn off the television.

No!” Lenina Crowne demurred. “Listen,
this whole turmoil doesn’t interest me at all; but we know John was
in the center of this mess and I’m waiting for more news about

* * *

“An outdoors orgyporgy in honor
of the Savage!” Voltaire Arouet, the TV host, laughed aloud.
“What do you think?”

“As an artist, I welcome it,” answered his guest Darwin
Bonaparte, “but I don’t think it is a good idea, at least not
the way it’s being done;” he gestured to a small screen where
the scenes were being presented. “I believe that recreational
activities like this should generate dividends, encourage trade. We
have to create proper rules and exclusive product lines. Did you
see the scourge they used to whip each other? We should create
replicas duly authorized by our Federation of Sports. I also see
potential growth for bandages and other curative industries, but
everything must be done within our convention of sanitation
and promote the common good as well as our morals.” He raised
his finger and smiled roguishly. « And the production of good
, of course. »

Good feelies! Can you believe this
opportunist? Ha ha ha,” shouted Voltaire Arouet to his
audience, who cheered delightedly.

* * *

“I hope `John’ has been arrested and taken for

« He’s a savage man, Fanny. Since he was not conditioned like us, he
doesn’t have a base point to revert to, » Henry explained this with
a didacticism that hinted `you work in a Conditioning Centre,
you should know this

“So let him be deported to a faraway savage island! It’s what
he deserves for doing… ” She stopped, looking sadly at
Lenina on the bed reclined almost to a right angle. To think that
she, Fanny, had not long ago encouraged her friend to have
John, rain or shine. Seeing her anxious blue eyes reflecting the
glow of the television moved Fanny immensely. They remained silent
for a while, listening to the newsreader.

“I don’t understand,” Lenina finally murmured, as if
struggling to remember some lost detail as she watched a group of
unclothed boys and girls attacking each other with quirts. “I
really don’t.”

“Only Our Freud can explain how all those
people became so erotically wild,” stated

“I’m thinking about John. What made him so angry, so brutal
towards me…”

“I guess this is what happens when one doesn’t take
tablets”, said Fanny. “Without Soma, people can only
become unstable and violent.”

That does not clarify even a bit what happened
shortly thereafter
, Henry thought to himself. From the moment
the Savage – maddened by their intrusion into his little sanctuary
at Elstead’s old lighthouse – had pounced on Lenina and him with a
scourge of cords, that ambiguous insanity had spread like wildfire
throughout the crowd of onlookers around them. He glanced at the TV
again; only our Freud…

“Is it really so?…” Lenina shook her head. “I
can’t avoid remembering what Bernard used to say…”

“Bernard? Are you talking about Bernard Marx? Ford’s
sake, you still think about…”

Wait girls, look: there is some breaking

* * *

Elstead Hill. A group of Gamma officials in their green costumes
were carrying a long black plastic bag from outside the old
lighthouse. Others were trying to make their way through the
throng. A tall leader wearing gray, ordered the squad to put the
bag inside a huge helicopter, the World State Shield symbol on its
fuselage, which had just landed nearby; some Gamma Guards struggled
to dispel the uproarious crowd which pressed against them.

Captain, what’s happening?” a civilian

“I’m not allowed to disclose that information,”
thundered the leader. “Please wait for the official

“Where is the Savage?”, came another voice.

“We are here for more Savage orgy!” others were
joining in with shouting and questioning.

“What is inside that bag?”

“…he brought whips!”

“He made us one! He made us one!”

“Gentleman, again, please wait for the official
announcement,” the leader insisted.

“…porgy gives release!”

“I want to be possessed by him, too!”

“Where is he?” The cries were multiplying.

“What is that rope you’re carrying?”

The Gamma tried awkwardly and ineffectively to hide the rope.

“Our Savage!” someone shouted.

“Our Savage!” other voices responded.

Hey!” the leader turned, furious. “Who is
saying that?”

* * *

The image remained on the screen for a few long
seconds. Against the sunlight seeping through a high window,

a suspended figure turned slowly from side
to side, oscillating
and tilting like the needle of a
damaged compass of a traveler
, adrift.

* * *

“My Lord, the images you’re seeing are…”

“I know,” a deep resonant voice interrupted the
mulberry-liveried Beta Captain. A black-haired man with a hooked
nose and dark piercing eyes was seated in a high-backed armchair
behind a large desk. “Bring me the telephone,” he

At his command two medium-height identical octoroons in their green
uniforms – Gamma butlers – pushed a table on coasters towards him,
a black box with a fancy silver hook upon it. The man in the
high-backed seat took the hook and, calmly but severely, ordered
the telephonist to call “Director Wesley.” After some
seconds, he uttered in a rather harsh tone, “It’s me. Are you
watching the news? Good. So you know why I am calling. Stop the
transmission of images of our mission in Elstead immediately and
above all remove every piece of footage shot inside the lighthouse.
None of this should be transmitted. Find those responsible. I do
not expect any less from you.”

The man hung up the phone and, placing his elbows on the desk and
entwining his fingers, focused on the large television set in front
of him. The officers watched him reverently, somewhat bewildered by
his sudden silence. After some seconds the broadcast was
interrupted, and the image turned to noise.

“What’s happened now?” Bernard asked thousands of
miles away. “Is it offline?”

“Bernard! Was that what it seemed?” There was a
certain dread in the voice of Helmholtz.

The image returned, replaying the scenes of that frightful

« Ah, I think I understand, » sighed Thomas

“Good,” the man in the high back armchair waved his
hand. “You can leave, now”.

“As you wish, thy Fordship,” the officers saluted. The
Beta Captain left the office, followed by the twins in green,
dragging the large television set. As soon as he found himself
alone in the room, the man grabbed the phone again and pressed a

“Hullo. It’s me. Yes. Yes, of course I saw it. Who do you
think authorized that team? Yes, we will organize the `collected
data’. Yes, I understand. I have just taken action concerning this.
You know me. Yes, that leak will cost him his head.” He
chuckled. “Of course I’m being metaphorical!
Moreover, you were not supposed to know who Robespierre was!
Never mention… what? Official announcement? Yes, I
will think of something. No, not myself! Yes, possibly the nation
is in shock right now, but they will soon find another pastime and
forget everything completely. Oh, because I know how my people are,
that’s why. Yes, you were right. Yes of course. I hope to see you
soon. I have to go now; World Controller’s business to
attend to. What? Do not say that. Of course, of course. Me too.
Au revoir.”

He hung up the phone and murmured, shaking his head. “Sadly
she is right. I should have predicted that this would happen, John.
John… just like Cleopatra, you desired death as a
lover’s pinch, didn’t you?”

He rose from his chair and straightened his jacket and tie,
sighing. “Such a pity it ended this way, boy. I had imagined
many scenarios for your integration into our world.” He
walked to the door, turned off the office light and left.
“But I had failed to foresee that it would end like this. The
experiment is over.”

A low whisper sounded in the darkness, barely human.

“No, Controller Mustapha Mond. Actually the whole
is just beginning”.

* * *

“Of course I’m sure,” Henry sighed. “It’s what
happens when one’s body is hung up by a noose around the

“I don’t understand!” Lenina Crowne growled. “Why
would he do that to himself? It doesn’t make any sense!”

“You told me that in the Savage reservation they used to
self-harm until their blood ran profusely in order to make the soil
fertile. What sense do you expect from those people,

Lenina didn’t answer. She was pale, her eyes like glass, gradually
becoming a tremulous glow; which did not go unnoticed by Fanny.
“It’s fine, darling. He made his choice: to anticipate the
inevitable; to become part of everything; and now his phosphorous
will feed the trees, the trees will feed the birds, the birds will
feed something else. He has finally found his place in the world,
in the cycle of life.”

Lenina shook her head and yelled, “Fine? No, it is not fine!
Death is not fine! Not death like that!” She sobbed;
tears moistening the bandages on her face. She took Fanny’s hands.
“It’s so absurd, I was talking to him just a few hours ago,
and now you say he is gone…”

Henry and Fanny looked at each other. What was happening there?
They were both aware of very rare cases when someone became very
disturbed about another’s death. Could their friend be one of those
people with such a psychological disorder? And all for the sake of
a berserk savage! Fanny shivered. Could it be a result of the
beating she took? A hit to the head could…

“Dear, I should call the doctor.”

Lenina took a breath and went on, “Oh Fanny, I know what
you’re thinking; don’t get me wrong! I know that passing away is
welcomed by those who have completed the lifetime predetermined
from the hatcheries; a biological process like any other. However,
strictly speaking it should only happen to people who have reached
this stage, leaving this world happily on a soma holiday,
surrounded by children and sweets; not a self-inflicted death, not
abruptly, not… like that!”

Fanny remained sorrowfully quiet, holding her hands. What to say?
She would usually reproach her friend for freaking out like this
over such baloney, but the whole situation was too far from her
beliefs and counsel. Lenina was too weak to deal with her
inconsistencies at the moment, and – just maybe – she was not wrong
about this death. It was indeed not supposed to happen.

“I was there,” she continued, “I was with him. We
went there to bring him back, I knew he couldn’t cope being there,
with all those people going to see him, making fun of

“You did your best,” Henry placed a hand on her
shoulder. “You saw him, the poor man was as wild as a beast,
beyond any help; Ford, I was lucky I managed to escape from his
aggression, or I would have got beaten too!”

Fanny rose an eyebrow at him.

“Then the Soma Mist took over and the frenzy
began…” Lenina went on, disregarding Henry’s
complacence, “he stopped attacking me and went on striking
with the whip! I should have stayed there, I could have
prevented him from…”

“Stayed there? With that lunatic?”

“Don’t blame yourself,” Henry insisted, “Most
likely we will never truly understand his reasons, what afflicted
him to the point of finishing his own life, but you have to deal
with what happened, my dear, the way we are conditioned to do so.
Let him go, and keep your happiness.”

Fanny looked at him, agreeing. Lenina closed her eyes. Tears were
rolling down her face. Fanny patted her cheeks.

“Please, take a tablet, darling.”

* * *

The TV news had already returned to local events, and the people
that had crowded in the Ranganathan’s Audiovisual Room to watch the
show had already scattered back to the library, proffering
exclamations of perplexity, wondering to what odd end the spectacle
had arrived. Some even laughed at the event. “People from
Utopia”, they said. “There is always one more level to
their madness!” Meanwhile, an anonymous former citizen from
the ‘Utopia’ remained stunned in front of the screen, shaking his
head. « Terrible, » Bernard Marx shook his head.
« Absolutely terrible. »

« Bernie boy, do you happen to know the crazy guy that was on
TV? » Seeing that Bernard was not in the mood, Nietzsche said in a
more sober tone. « I know how you feel. I had to face the same
realization long ago. Living beings are only a species of the dead.
We were all conditioned not to think too seriously about these
things. After all, what is there to think about? Yes, I understand
why they bother with that masquerade in London, doing away with the
terminally ill by increasingly large doses of hallucinogens in
their Hospitals for Moribunds; why they make it seem pleasant to
the children compelled to witness it, stuffing themselves with
sweets and ice-cream. Well, we are not in London anymore, and it is
up to each one of us to decide if the prospect of ending shall
sweeten our lives with a fragrant drop of levity or an ill-tasting
drop of poison. Because death is close, and there is no beauty in

Bernard looked up at him with a deep expression of sadness.
“I should have known that those imbeciles would push him to
his limit, but considering that he could…” he held back for
a moment, shaking his head. “If at least he had
granted John to come with us! Who knows why the Controller wanted
to keep him there!” Thomas Nietzsche stared at them intently.
Bernard Marx, Helmholtz Watson – what was up with these two
fellows? What was their connection with the mysterious Savage who
had appeared in the heart of Great Britain? And why would the
Controller himself get involved in this matter?

As soon as he had been notified of the two Londoners arrival at
Falklands’ Refugee Community, Nietzsche had offered them jobs as
his assistants at the Central Library. At least he could keep an
eye on them. The exiled used to be problematic, especially Alphas.
Many of them went into depression; others, seeing themselves freed
from the technological or artistic control of the World State,
deepened their controversial scientific research or any other
subject from which they had been prevented from studying before. In
the end, the library had proven to be the right place to keep them
mentally busy and out of trouble. Helmholtz Watson was immersed in
literature and writing; Bernard Marx had become a fan of old books
about history, religion and philosophy. `We want to know the
greatest thoughts of past humanity’, they had said. Nietzsche
promptly led them to Ranganathan’s dungeons.

Nietzsche loved to tease them once in a while, mainly Bernard. `Are
you sure you are an Alpha?’ he would say. Bernard’s standard
reactions to the pestering were just as amusing to him. `Hush, you
crazy, old man!’ the boy ranted. He laughed aloud. They were
useless, but didn’t seem to be dangerous. What could they have done
to be exiled from London? Why were they sent to his island? What
was their relationship with the famous Savage, the celebrity of an
unwitting slapstick comedy?

“I was the one who found him in a Savage Reservation,”
explained Bernard. “The World Controller granted me
permission to take him to London. Without our tutelage, the `modern
world’ would have become unbearable for him.” After a pause,
he continued, “I admit that I took advantage of him whilst it
was possible. That kid aroused too much curiosity from the
`civilized’ around him. Besides, being `the discoverer’ of the
famous Savage put me in a prominent social position for some weeks.
In the end, it was completely worthless. How I regret

“It’s interesting. You must tell me more about your
misadventures when the time comes, but now I think you had better
assist that brawny friend of yours.”

Watson?” Bernard looked around.

* * *

Bernard opened the door sheepishly, but its old hinges creaked
noisily. He was as expected: sat at his desk, bent over a book.

« Helmholtz, you disappeared suddenly, is everything right? » he
whispered. Watson did not answer nor turn to him. Bernard
emboldened himself enough to enter the makeshift office and stood
by his side. Watson’s face was grim, barely discernible in the
penumbra. « I see you’re sad for what happened, my friend,”
Bernard said after a moment of silence. “I am also. Do you
want to talk about it? »

I can still hear,” Helmholtz finally said in a
grave, hoarse voice.

“What did you say?” Bernard stammered.

“I can still hear his voice in my mind when I read

Read what?” But there was no answer as the
seconds passed. « Well, I see you need some time with your thoughts.
I’ll leave you alone, » said Bernard, turning back. Suddenly, the
heavy hand of Helmholtz landed on his shoulder and spun him round.
Bernard beheld with amazement the tear-soaked face and reddish eyes
of his friend, frightfully staring back at him a few inches away.
Watson pulled Bernard towards him, embracing him. The man was
sobbing profusely.

He is gone, Bernard! Our friend is gone!” His
voice was numb.

« Hey, easy, partner. Calm down,” said Bernard, troubled,
feeling his friend’s eyes wetting his shoulder. “It’s all
right!” As Helmholtz’s breathing became decreasingly intense,
Bernard allowed himself to chuckle. “Relax, big one. For a
moment I thought you were about to beat me, you know? »

Helmholtz released him, wiping his eyes and cheeks, recomposing
himself. « I’m sorry, Bernard. Perhaps I’ve overdone it, but it’s
the first time I have ever felt like that. I`ve
never cried before! »

So I see,” Bernard said with some resignation.
Than he added, “Look, I understand you, I am also sorrowful
by what happened to the Sav… to John.”

Sorrowful,” Helmholtz echoed. “So, this
is the feeling. It is something to be cherished. On the other hand,
I feel a strange joy,” he said with a slight smile. “In
the end, that fool has taught me a little about

Shakespeare?… what do you mean?”

“Everyone can master grief, but he that has it,” he
quoted. “To weep is to make less the depth of

“Yes, I understand that only too well.” Bernard
breathed out.

“I feel I’ve known a wider range of emotions, and that makes
me more human then I was before.” After a pause he said with
resolve, “No; It is as if I was recovering something I had
long forgotten! I wondered if grief was something that really
hurts. Now I see that it does, but it’s a different pain. Do you
remember when I talked about the X-ray?”

“X-Ray?” Bernard’s eyes widened. “I fear I missed
something, dear friend.”

“My desire was always to write something powerful enough to
reach the hearts of anyone – as X-rays pass through everything; but
I always faced the difficulty of finding something really worth it,
in a world of so much propaganda, stimulus to the senses and
nothing more;” he took a breath. There was a fresh sparkle in
his eyes. “but now I feel I have got something. The power of
a message that can talk deep inside us. Something that can pierce
the reader!”

Bernard nodded, somewhat moved and embarrassed. Not too long ago,
even he wasn’t able to understand his friend Watson and was jealous
about the sudden empathy between Helmholtz and John the Savage. To
him, John had been nothing more than a resource of self-promotion
since the beginning. Through that kid, he would prove to everyone
that he was right, that his psychology thesis was accurate, that he
understood better the entire human condition. That `primal man’
would demonstrate that society (and not him) was odd. How
despicable were his ambitions! In the end, who cared about his
preaching? And then there was that fateful occasion when John
turned his back on him – refusing to submit to his guests, leaving
Bernard in an extremely shameful situation – and it made him hate
the Savage bitterly.

However, in the end he was right – John indeed wasn’t like the
others. He was better than them; better than him. The Savage had
not truly despised him like everyone else, and his loyal
friendship, his sincere devotion for a man that was thinking only
of taking advantage of his condition, was the final proof that he,
Bernard Marx, was right. The Indian was more a human than all of
those so-called `civilized’ aristocrats who attended the meetings
Marx organized in his apartment; and yet, he was unable to return
such friendship. He, Bernard Marx, was no better than the fools who
scorned him.

John used to talk about “souls”. He
looked at Helmholtz, who was now staring at the cloudy sky, so
naively pure in his emotions, spontaneous as a child, tasting his
`new power’ of feeling sadness; an unenviable gift. If something
like a soul really existed, Helmholtz had a nobler one than

“You’re a little wacky, Watson,” he chuckled,
“but a good man.” He patted his friend’s shoulder.
“Come, take your umbrella. Let’s go back to the hostel.
Enough library for today.” Watson turned to him, agreeing. On
his desk, the book remained open, marked by his teardrops, each
line underscored by his pain.

To be, or not to be: that is the question:

Whether ’tis nobler in the mind to suffer

The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,

Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,

And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;

No more; and by a sleep to say we end

The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks

That flesh is heir to, ’tis a consummation

Devoutly to be wish’d. To die, to sleep;

To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there’s the rub;

For in that sleep of death what dreams may come

When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,

Must give us pause: there’s the respect

That makes calamity of so long life;

For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,

The oppressor’s wrong, the proud man’s contumely,

The pangs of despised love, the law’s delay,

The insolence of office and the spurns

That patient merit of the unworthy takes,

When he himself might his quietus make

With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,

To grunt and sweat under a weary life,

But that the dread of something after death,

The undiscover’d country from whose bourn

No traveller returns, puzzles the will

And makes us rather bear those ills we have

Than fly to others that we know not of?

Thus conscience does make cowards of us all.

A cold wind turned the pages.